3.22.25 IDK how to plan a wedding

I have been tasked with the little itty bitty job of planning our whole wedding. I have no clue what I'm doing I literally just sent an email asking our venue if the ceremony chairs are also the reception chairs? (Is that a real question? Idk but I'm really fixated on the chair situation like how does that work...) This is a big wedding also. Our families are too damn big.

I must say what a privilige it is to be stressed by something like this. We are so lucky. But I am so stressed. Our wedding is in 7 months and I feel like I haven't done anything. AND I am a bridesmaid for my brother's wedding in May. I feel like there is a disproportionate amount of Adult Events happening this year that I have to take part in.

And to layer on to all that stress, I have a uti which my brain has generously translated to me actually having various cancers and probably a brain tumor. Health anxiety is cool because I will get a minor cramp and then I have no choice but ponder on how my family will go on without me.

3.20.25 March Equinox

Today is the march equinox. On this day, the days/nights of the northern and southern hemisphere are equal length, and onwards (until summer) the days in the northern hemisphere get gradually longer vs. shorter in the south.

Yesterday (and the last few days) I have been finishing up the flowers section of this website. I was thinking about how by this time of year the wildflowers are starting to bloom, yet right now there is almost nothing so far. This would normally be my favorite time of year, where the sides of every road is littered with a whole array of flowers. That's like the one good thing about where I live. Not being greeted by the usual splashes of color feels grim.

It's still too early to say that's really it, so I'm really hoping that the flowers are just coming a little late this year.

3.19.25 Welcome

Welcome to my journal page!